Miracle

It's not easy being chunky, but that's what I am. I'm chunky. I've been this way my entire life. A mix between bad genes from my family, a grandma that makes everything from lard, and growing up in the era of the fast food world - means that I was set to be this way. I've been "dieting" since middle school....no pictures please......because my results are under the category "may vary." Anyway. Today is a new day. Since the beginning of the semester I've been commending myself to turn over a new leaf. To not just try to lose weight or to diet, but to succeed. And low and behold, here came Animal Vegetable Mircale. - This book is not a how to or what not. This book is an eye opener, a burst of energy, a jumper cable on my car. I've dived into the book and so far I like what I'm reading. The message I've been getting from this book is not so much as that food needs to be produced and ate from local vendors, but that this is a time for change. In all honesty I would love to start eating food and produce from local vendors, but at my current stature (size) I think I should just take things one day at a time. I've started a food journal that correlates with this book and everytime I eat something, it will be written down in the journal - along with my struggles and thoughts. This time I'm going to do it. I don't want to drink gallons of oil anymore. I want to live my life the way I've always dreamed of doing it. I want to be me, the real me. Not the person hiding inside. Books and messages can me various things to various people and to me, this is my calling. It's a calling to change my life. And on top of everything, I'm greatful because I have a class that will look me in the eye everyday and remind me of what I need to do. This is an opportunity for me, and I don't want to be three months from now and still be wishing I had done what I set out to do. I've been doing that for the past 15 years.

I'm ready to go this time.